I had intended to place my own headline article ‘Always in my heart’ at the top of this post. The article connects personal experience accumulated during 15 years living in the former Soviet Union and recent escalation of tension between the Russian state and NATO. While preparing the article and keeping abreast of other newly published articles my attention was drawn to a Miles Mathis update focused on Herbert Marcuse one of many sociologists and political theorists from the Frankfurt School whose intellectual posturing has done so much damage to our world.

The climax of the update so eloquently describes our current situation I felt it deserved to be at the top of the post. ‘Always in my heart’ follows next.

“What they have never wanted you to understand is that neither Capitalism nor Socialism are really economic or political theories, or blueprints for anything. Capitalism and Socialism are both fronts for the billionaires, and as such are only words on a cloak. The real world doesn’t proceed on Socialistic or Capitalistic principles and never has. It proceeds as a vast con-game of the super-wealthy against the rest of society, hiding behind theories, ideas, philosophies, and other word-games. Everything is a vast illusion except the steal. Everything, from science to philosophy to literature to media to art is just a veil to cover the steal and the thieves. But if you don’t realize that going in, it is very hard to glean that from the literature later. Young people aren’t taught any of the useful facts of history, like who these famous people are and where they came from and how they are all related. Without that knowledge, you tend to give them the benefit of the doubt, giving them a more-than-fair reading from the generosity of your pure young heart. Which is how they snare you. To get ahead in this world, you have to glom onto someone somewhere somehow, or almost everyone does. I didn’t, but that is another mystery to be solved by the Muses. The point here is that without a near-miracle, you will decide to trust someone when you pick a path, and that trust will be your intellectual undoing. You will put your eggs in some basket and find them very difficult to get back, they having hatched into chickens and being eaten long ago. Working on that strange farm, you will be very disinclined to question the crop rotations, the planting schedules, or the height of the barn. Unless you are prepared to board the next boxcar and live with the hobos, your demise is set.

So Marcuse was right about that as well. Your society is happy to lock you in early, and the American system was never any exception to that rule. But I am showing you he wasn’t as broken up about that as he pretended to be. Do you really think he wanted any of his students breaking through any ceiling? No, because if they had they would have soon displaced him. He would have been out of a job. Almost no one in academia or out of it ever wanted to hatch truly brilliant students, since brilliant students would have soon exploded the entire edifice from within. That is precisely why I was always sat upon: they knew if I weren’t I would do what I have done. I slipped my bonds and am now
exploding the entire edifice from within.

Is anyone cheering me on, left or right? No. Everyone is scared shiftless because the last thing they ever really wanted is transcendence of any kind, either for themselves or for any hypothetical person. The last thing they were interested in was the truth. What they wanted in their heart of hearts was a
small conformity, one they could nestle in permanently with no fear of progress or change. The only upward mobility they were ever interested in was a bigger pay check for less work and less responsibility. And at the top of the pyramid, the only heaven they have ever sought is a heaven of stupider marks and easier billions. Art was something that used to accidentally get done by some oddballs, but now that it no longer is almost no one misses it. The same is true of science and literature, which, if they aren’t money laundering fronts or treasury dips or propaganda fonts, are considered worthless.

So, as a matter of dimensionality, things are actually much worse now than they were in Marcuse’s time. Man is no longer even one-dimensional. He is now zero-dimensional, flatter than a formica countertop and harder on the head. The all-consuming media has masticated Modern man into spent
gumball, stuck to the underside of the devil’s desk. This “man” has shrunk down to a dimensionless point and finally disappeared into Dirac’s vacuum sea, and to get anything out of him we will have to borrow from the future or invoke time reversals. Of course I exaggerate for effect, trying to embarrass this man into crawling back through the wormhole and getting on his own two feet again. There is only one way to do it, and it ain’t by reading
Marcuse or the Heritage Foundation or consulting any of the other million Intelligence fronts posing as educators in this world. The only way is to tell all those on both sides of the “dialectic” to fuck off and get out of your way. You have work to do and it won’t be done by bowing before any of the masters or
mentors offered you by the mainstream, or by the alternative stream either. It will be done by listening to your own Muse, who has always been your best guide. Turn off all the contraptions and contradictions and conmen and return to Nature, who is your real master. If you can again conjure the
quietude, you will hear her speak in the softest and gentlest voice.” Read the entire article here at Miles website.

ALWAYS IN MY HEART – In November 2000 I visited the former Soviet Union for the first time. It was one of the most exciting moments of my life. I arrived late afternoon at Odessa in Ukraine on the north west coast of the Black Sea.

Odessa railway station

By the time we left the airport by taxi it was dark. The old Moskvitch had blankets over the worn upholstery a feature that became normal for years to come. By the time we arrived in the provincial ship-building city of Nikolaev a couple of hours later I had already experienced the large roadside bazaar at Koblova where we stopped to buy fresh fish and Napoleon, a classic local cake. Little did I know that ‘the bazaar’ would become a fixture in my life for the next 16 years.

Privoz Bazaar, Odessa

That night I ate borsch for the first time in a café with live music, a similar setting you could not have obtained anywhere in Britain. As if that wasn’t enough at that time prices in Ukraine were so low that compared to the UK everything was almost free.

The hotel, a huge Soviet monolith, was the most basic I have ever paid for. The sink tap swung over to fill the bath. The shower fitting resembled a garden hose. Chipped tiles were everywhere. The lift would have made most westerners nervous but to me then it was all a thrilling adventure. By the time I departed after a four-night stay, I was already planning my next visit.

Pechersk Lavra, Kiev

A year later I was living in the capital Kiev. My partner was an experienced Keivan who introduced me to such a range of cultural experiences an entire book would be required to cover all the details.

Kiev, early morning. Glory Monument 1941-45

Kiev was also my first experience of the diplomatic and expatriate communities. It was made quite clear to me, not in a threatening way because I had no plans, that if you wanted to ‘do business’ in Ukraine you would need ‘an umbrella’. I met plenty British and Americans who had almost certainly invested in the necessary inclement weather protection. Having come from a rural Scottish background where at that time I imagined corruption was almost non-existent I wasn’t inclined to join them.

Andrevskiy Descent, Kiev – Arts & crafts bazaar

In general the diplomatic community were more relaxed and there were regular events to participate in. There was also in the few months after I arrived a few unusual encounters that were obviously fishing to discover whether or not I was something other than what I appeared to be.  

Khreschatyk the main street of Kiev

At Easter 2004 I made a camping trip to Crimea with one of the British Embassy personnel and our sons. We camped in the upper Belbek Valley in the Crimea Mountains above Yalta. It was a paradise which had been the centre of Soviet rose oil production but at that moment it was obvious the area was in the trough of an economic cycle. Within a couple weeks I returned with my partner and we bought two houses. I stayed for 12 years.

It was during that time that I discovered most of the history I had been taught about the Russian Empire and the Soviet Union was at best inaccurate more likely downright lies and propaganda. As it turns out this inaccuracy is not confined to Russia and the USSR. At school I had studied some Russian history. In my final year I wrote a dissertation on the repatriation of the Cossacks to the Soviet Union at the end of WWII. Being born in the 60’s was not that long after WWII so at school plenty young boys found the subject interesting. Later I studied the Cold War which thanks to Anthony Sutton we now understand was just another establishment illusion.

Since returning to the west I have noticed how people become mesmerised when I describe my experiences in Ukraine and Russia. Generally, my comments are about human aspects of life. Unfortunately, I also experienced the in human events of 2014 when certain western elements facilitated a coup d’etat in Kiev. The legitimately elected president, Viktor Yanukovich, fled in fear from the mob. It is alleged that the Biden family benefitted much financially from these events.


Crimea, a region of Ukraine at that time, but statistically the area least supportive of Ukrainian nationalism, not surprisingly ran cap in hand to Russia. Two weeks after the coup a referendum unanimously showed the Crimeans in favour of a break away from Ukraine to join the Russian Federation. Despite threats by the NATO block Russia proceeded to absorb Crimea within its border and has since invested heavily on the peninsula.

Karadag jurassic coastline of Crimea

Crimea is still ostracised by the NATO allies. You’ll find that most global websites either continue to mark Crimea as part of Ukraine or just ignore its existence completely. You can’t send mail or transfer money directly to Crimea but hypocritically still possible via the Russian mainland. International credit cards do not function in Crimea.

Crimea Mountains

Recent reports allege increased tension between NATO and Russia. ‘Globalists Beat the Drums of War, As They Entice Putin to Invade Ukraine’, read here. Benjamin Fulford reports that this is part of a the last grasps by the existing establishment to maintain their control.

Kremlin & the Moscow River

The Ukrainian Civil War has been running for 7 years. Ukrainian aggression continues to be felt by inhabitants of Donetsk and Lugansk regions in the south east of Ukraine. Missile attacks are frequent. Adjacent to Russia the population are almost entirely Russian speaking with strong ties to Russia and unsupportive toward anti-Russian Ukrainian nationalism. There is no prospect that these people or their future descendants will have any interest in re-uniting with Ukraine. This is how the globalists always operate.

With hindsight my experience of Ukraine from 2000 to 2014 was so unique. At no time in documented history has that area been as open and welcoming to outsiders. Five times I drove from Scotland to Crimea a journey that could be accomplished in under 90 hours with no more documentation than an EU passport. Now this is far from the case. My stomach feels uncomfortable and my heart heavy, just beginning to think what obstacles exist today. So many moments with people who were almost always warm and friendly. Then there were those with whom I grew closer and will likely never meet again.

Chacha s luchshimi druz’yami

It’s now just over 5 years since Gagarin District Court in Sevastopol sentenced me to a voluntary administrative deportation. I’m still convinced that the judge Ludmilla Michaelovna Beccarab intended that I should have the possibility to return immediately and apply for residential status. Three months later the Russian Ministry of Internal Affairs advised me that it would be at least 5 years before I could return. Statutes quoted in the court verdict show no reference to a long-term expulsion.

Gagarinski Shopping Centre, Sevastopol

Matthew 5:25 Agree with thine adversary quickly, whiles thou art in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver thee to the judge, and the judge deliver thee to the officer, and thou be cast into prison. 5:26 Verily I say unto thee, thou shalt by no means come out thence until thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.  

St Sophia Cathedral, Kiev – over 1000 years old, one of the oldest functioning buildings on earth
St Sophia Cathedral, Kiev

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Now, lots of interesting posts from the last ten days       

Benjamin Fulford, summary and profile here, published on 22nd November ‘Western world revolts against Satanic ruling class’. Fulford presents the view that the established order is on the run, rapidly losing control, but won’t quit easily. Read full article here  

Anyone for tennis? We probably all agree that tennis is not the highest priority in most peoples lives right now. However, reports are emerging from Australia that Novak Djokovic, Serbian World No.1 tennis player will not be allowed to play in the Australian Open unless publicly enrolled as a pharmaceutical lab rat. It seems that he refuses to declare his medical status something always regarded as perfectly legitimate. This is of course just another example of the ongoing destruction of societal norms that perhaps we have too easily taken for granted. While tennis is not such a great priority the position taken by Djokovic might draw the attention of some who are not yet convinced that our personal liberty is under severe threat.

Australian Pat Cash is a former Wimbledon Men’s singles champion who now works in sport broadcasting. This week the British Conservative Woman website published an article highlighting Australian tennis authority discrimination against Djokovic. The article includes an interview with Pat Cash who comments on the covid chaos and encourages everyone to do their own research as opposed to blindly following a crowd and much more. Read the article and watch the interview here     

Parrhesia by Kayla Henry. ‘Someone had to say something – I’m glad she did.’ Lovely piece of rhyme, poetry. Four minute watch here

Stew Peters interviews Dr David Martin who outlines the criminal conspiracies that are driving the covid chaos, watch here

‘This Pivotal Moment’ is a stark warning of what will almost certainly happen if we don’t unite to avert the impending global tyranny. What has been termed ‘Turn Key Totalitarianism’ is too close for comfort, watch here

What is Luciferase? An article from Emerald Robinson’s ‘The Right Way’ on an alleged ingredient of the experimental injection, read here

From Stolen History, a new forum, ‘Viruses are not contagious’, read here

November 23rd report on the daughter of Malcolm X found dead 2 hours after arranging a meeting at the Russian Consulate. Read here

‘Former pro calls for “investigation” after another football player suddenly collapses, an article published on Summit News by Paul Joseph Watson, read here

1 minute video from Israel – The ‘experts’ telling you to take the vaccine scramble for words when confronted with the official deaths tally directly caused by the experimental injection, watch here

According to the UK Office of National Statistics those in England who participated in the medical experiment are dying at twice the rate of those who did not, read here

Moronic, anagram of omicron! Off-Guardian article, read here  

By Iain Davis at Off-Guardian, ‘Seizing Everything’, The theft of the global commons. Read here

“In keeping silent about evil, in burying it so deep within us that no sign of it appears on the surface, we are implanting it, and it will arise a thousand-fold in the future. When we neither punish or reproach evildoers, we are not simply protecting their trivial old age, we are ripping the foundations of justice from beneath new generations.” Aleksandr I Solzhenitsyn, The Gulag Archipelago

Luke 21:8 And he said. Take heed that ye be not deceived: for many shall come in my name, saying I am Christ; and the time draweth near: go ye not therefore after them.

21:9 But when ye shall hear of wars and commotions, be not terrified: for these things must first come to pass; but the end is not by and by.

21:10 Then said he unto them, Nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom:

21:11 And great earthquakes shall be in divers places, and famines and pestilences; and fearful signs and great signs shall there be from heaven.

21:12 But before all these, they shall lay their hands upon you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name’s sake.

21:13 And it shall turn to you for a testimony

21:14 Settle it therefore in your hearts not to meditate before what ye shall answer:

21:15 For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay or resist.

21:16 And ye shall be betrayed both by parents and brethren, and kinsfolks, and friends; and some of you shall they cause to be put to death.

21:17 And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake.

21:18 But there shall not an hair of your head perish.

21:19 In your patience possess ye your souls.

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